love. it is a funny thing; it brings with it the possiblity of a whole lot of joy and the guarantee of at least a bit of pain. but, it isnt the be all and end all of things. and, regardless of the amount of time and energy you invest in the relationship, there’s no guarantee that things will work out the way you want it to.
over time, i have learnt, thankfully that presents and kisses are promises that tomorrow will come. they are gurantees of a forever together. i have learnt that, you just hold on to what you’ve got while you’ve got it and you stop thinking and questioning and planning; you jus be.. because… tomorrow really is too uncertain to plan for.
life, relationships; everyth is uncertain. you hope for the best or at least to come out onto the other side whole. love’s nice. being in love feels nice, being loved in return feels better. but, love is not something you give yourself up to have; it exists as one with you. he supports your aspirations and dreams instead of trying to mould you into becoming a little him.
happily ever after isnt overrated actually. i have a boyfriend now, a very.. err.. interesting one at that. he laughs at me, calls me fat, pokes and prods at my tummy, doesnt listen to me BUT pretends to while munching on a pack of noodles, overloads me with strange songs, takes my food (involuntarily, he claims), mocks me to no end, steps on my prettiest shoes, coke-ifies my palms, cracks my knuckes AGAINST my wishes and gets me the strangest things. butt he’s really quite special. in that things; even all the cra feels so real. being totally in awe of the other person is different from being in lala land.
school, family, love, friends, they are part of life, they are not life in itself. there’s so much more to it than sappy love songs playing in the distance. love is working towards a great tomorrow; its so not about trying ultramega hard to hold on to someone. at least not to me.
